51 posts tagged “about me”

I have this little thing that means I don't eat unless I am hungry. Some days, not many, it means I eat almost constantly, snacking on frozen grapes, cereal bars, apples, bananas - actually pretty much anything that's easy to pick up and eat without preparation. The rest of the time, I find it hard to stick to having a set meal. Even when I cook for the kids, I don't always feel hungry, so I wont eat then and the next thing you know, my tummy starts to rumble and I realise of course it's growling at me because I haven't eaten in the past few days.

Back before Easter, I tried an experiment and I set the alarm on my phone to remind me to eat at least twice a day. I'd have porridge or a handful of Bite-Sized Shredded Wheat and happily take 30 minutes or so to eat them. Then I was feeling quite unwell for a few months and didn't have an appetite again, so it all got forgotten.

Talking to KT about something we both heard on the radio, I realised two things. One, I had been craving porridge recently and two, he mentioned how bright and sparky I had been when I was making the effort to eat my porridge all those months before and I realised how right he was.

My affirmation is that I  ♥ Porridge and starting with the mugful that has just taken me an hour to eat, I am going to make a concerted effort to eat at least a mugful each day, whether I want it or not and even if I eat nothing else.

I have been bitten by some unknown insect that left me with a large itchy lump on the back of my hand which ended up looking like a chickenpox scab and almost three weeks later, there is still a mark there.

The day before last, I asked Number Two Daughter to look at my back for me as it had been driving me to distraction all day with one part being incredibly itchy. She mentioned there were two little marks near to each other and scratched around them. Yesterday, I got KT to check it out as I really felt it was going to send me mental. He told me that there were two large bite marks that were so close it had formed a large welt. N2D took a photo with KT's finger in shot to show me perpective and it was huge.

Last night, the familiar burning itch was on my leg and sure enough, there was a large welting bite there too. I don't know what's suddenly taking a fancy to me, but I sure as heck know my body doesn't like it.

Kadeeae has tagged me and below is how to participate once I've tagged YOU...

Here's how it works...

    * Each player starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.

    * People who are tagged, write a blog post about their own 8 random things, and post these rules.

    * At the end of your post you need to tag 8 people and include their names.

    * Don’t forget to leave them a comment on their blog and tell them they’ve been tagged, and to come back and read your blog for the whole story.

1. When I was a child, I wanted to live in a Hobbit house so much that I completely designed one for when I was older and obviously incredibly rich. It included a main circular hall in the centre of it with a raised skylight that I would be able to sit and watch the stars and storms through. Turns out that KT had a similar desire for a Hobbit home in his life when he was a nipper as well.
2. I tend to carry a notebook, sketchbook and assorted stationary with me at all times. I use them for quick jottings, to make notes of things I hear on the radio, to tear bits out to give to the kids to stave off boredom, to doodle, etc..
3. When I feel really unwell, I crave Marmite and Cheese & Onion crisp sarnies. I'm thinking it's a salt thing.
4. My hair falls out really easily. Each time I brush or comb it, I end up with a fairly hefty sized ball of hair. Each time I was pregnant I got bald patches at my hairline where my fringe is - though I don't think it's related.
5. I get really hot, really easily. When other people are hurrying through what I know is chilly weather and all wrapped up as well, I am the freak wandering about in a t-shirt. I only tend to feel the cold when it's freezing and below or when I am ill.
6. I've very recently discovered a penchant for slow roasted veggies - especially parsnips. I used to loathe parsnips.
7. I'm a nail biter. I've stopped a few times but the first sign of stress will usually start me nibbling again. KT usually knows if I have been talking to my mum or have to call her because there is major nail decimation then.
8. I really, really wanted to be a mermaid when I was younger. I spent hours in the swimming pool, staying underwater for as much of it as I could. I thought I was terribly graceful. I joined three swimming clubs, swam for my school etc. and daydreamed of swimming when I wasn't doing it. At 11 we moved to somewhere that was miles from the nearest local pool and apart from participating the one and only time my school had a swimming gala, I have never been swimming, properly, since.

I tag - anyone who wants to do it - I knwo there are few people who have been slapped with this more than once recently.  

UM 275

State :: of War
Lively :: Sprightly
Valet :: Service
Traction :: Engine
Official :: Programme
Red hot :: Chili Peppers
Powder :: Keg
Replies :: Answers
Flagrant :: Disregard
Tweet:: E-pie ;o)

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UM 274

Thug :: Bully
Slurp :: Slushie
Alley :: Cat
Sweater vest :: Nerd
Targeted :: Area
Snazzy :: Shades
Oy! :: Vey!
Jury duty :: Responsibility
Low fat :: Yogurt
Responsibility :: Purpose

UM 273

Questioning :: Look
Immunity :: Safety
Online dating :: Lucky Dip
Calcium :: Deposit
Dressing :: Up
Bucket :: Head
Stain :: Remover
Advanced :: Furtherment
Dramatic :: Exit
Self-medication :: Ibuprofen

No UM 272 in the archives so:

UM 271

Silence :: Deafening
Wall :: Brick
Killed :: Murdered
Wishful :: Thinking
Poodle :: 's Arse
Sullen :: Glance
Do not disturb :: Sign
Philadelphia :: Cheese
Anticipation :: Teasing opportunity 
Sidewalk :: Hopscotch

UM 270

Nutritious :: and delicious, tastes just like chicken
Graduate :: College
Tonight! :: West Side Story
Located :: HERE
Weapon :: of Choice
Jumper :: Cable
Collectibles :: Dust magnets
Dennis :: The Menace
Hostile :: Intentions
Vivid :: Imagination

UM 269

Stuffed :: Animal
Gills :: Stuffed to the
Distance :: Runner
Panties :: Hooge
Checkered :: Past
Fill in :: Forms
Taunting :: Mean activity
Diner :: American
Pizza :: Base
Best friend :: KT

UM 268

Money :: Can't buy you love
Unhappy :: Clown
Joking :: Aside
Chipmunk :: Theodore
Date :: Stamp
Slideshow :: Flickr
Chicago :: Town Pizza
Lifetime :: Achievement
Skid row :: Down and Out
Edward :: Bear

UM 267

Paranormal :: Activity
Alarm :: Bells
Operative :: Word
Changing :: Places
Framed :: Photo
Beer :: Keg
Referral :: Sent on
Unmasked :: Revealed
Movie star :: Glamour
Handbook :: Hitch-Hiker's Guide

UM 266

Homicide :: Detective
Divisive :: Unsettled
Flash :: Ahhh! He'll Save Every One Of Us!
Steaming :: Pile
Crunch :: Number
Look out! :: Duck!
Anticipating :: Waiting
Slim :: Jim
Navel :: Jewel
Help :: I Need Somebody

UM 265

Chemical :: Brothers
Poker :: Face
Federal :: Agent
Mattress :: Cover
Who am I? :: Guess Who
Investigation :: Federal Bureau of
In good hands :: Handing over trust
8:30 :: am
Creditors:: Owed
Resource :: Library

my dad called earlier. He doesn't get in touch very often and we never speak for long, but he wasn't about when I was a child (I think I maybe saw him 5 or so times when I was wee) as I was the result of an affair and each of my parents have their own version of why things didn't work out. His is heartwarming and he always tries to put mum in a good light. Mum's is all about what a shit he is. I've found it out things I've never known in some of these small conversations and afterall, it is nice to talk occasionally. None of my family, on all sides (yes, all - I have a weird assed family), is good at keeping in touch. My mum moved and I found out because I happened to be with my step-dad when he went to collect my brother for something. She was absolutely adamant that she'd told me she'd moved. The last thing I had known about it, was when I was round hers helping decorate for a possible future move. Possible. It turned out she'd been offered £20k more than she'd been planning to ask for and in cash as well, so moved within a week.

Today, I was reminded of how out of the loop I am with my dad's side.

First I was asked if I'd been invited to my sister and brother in law's big 21st wedding anniversary do at the end of next month. It takes these little events to get us all together. I hadn't heard, but to be honest, Heather isn't the best at keeping address and phone details in a safe place and they'd only decided to have this party a few days back, so I shook that off as a 'maybe she'll get in touch'.

Then, it was dropped into the conversation that Heather and Co had moved - 2 months ago. Their eldest daughter had gotten into a bad crowd and the family were having problems with them so just decided to up and move. Again, I decided, no biggie - I just thanked goodness that I didn't have time to drop in when we headed to that part of the country last month, because I just hate making a prat of myself.

Then he dropped another bombshell. My Granny up in Scotland died in January and no-one had told me. I sobbed silently as he told me that she'd always asked after me and the children and that she never forgot about me. I'd only met her twice and both times very briefly, but she was warm hearted and funny and I finally realised why I would never get a snazzy pair of ankles. She told me how much I look like some of the aunts I have never met when they were my age and I could see so many similarities between us. It was also good to find out that the women on both sides of my family are short and fat so it was time to get real and forget about being tall and slim. I've never had the cash to go and visit her and I don't drive so that wasn't an option and now I wont get to meet her again as I'd hoped.

I feel fucking angry and miserable. I'm off to curl up on the sofa with my tissues.

[edit: I totally forgot when I was typing this out to mention that I have been in pretty regular touch with my brother Brian by email, have visited Heather's (Brian and BIL were in) on one of our mega journeys, spoken to Heather and BIL on the phone on a couple of occasions and chatted with both Dad and step-mum a few times since the start of the year and when I've asked how everyone is, I've been told 'well'.] 

No idea why, but I just thought I'd ask... assuming you ladies out there do your exercises, when do you do them? Is there a regular time that you attempt them or does something remind you?

I've discovered that I do some when I am watching Neighbours, more when I am drifting off to sleep at night. I even do some occasionally when I am doing stuff online.

I do not want to be some dribbly old dear who smells of wee.

 Passport :: Photo
Small world :: It's a...
Radio :: Gaga
Marine :: Life
Wall :: to wall carpeting
Wanna be :: a rockstar
Pigtails :: Me!
Hyphen :: Connection
9.99 :: and a penny change from a tenner!
Unrated :: Unmarked

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What is your favorite scent or smell and why? 
Submitted by Nebraska Plates.

Yardley's April Violets. It was my nan's favourite scent and I still have a couple of the little china barrels that it was in that were hers. It's kind of a family favourite and I often have people sniff me and say that I smell of parma violets when I wear it. It's sweet and old fashioned and I love it.

Pinched from LeendaDLL

1. I've come to realise that my butt: is always going to look like two turkeys fighting in a sack when I walk.

2. I've come to realise that when I talk: I add in all kinds of weird and wonderful new words that mean absolutely nothing to anyone outside of my family and close friends.

3. I've come to realise that, if I love someone (not family): I'll love them unconditionally as part of my family until they do something really, really awful - and even then, I'll remember the good stuff first.

4. I've come to realise that I need: to get out and about more. Since SH pushed me off the prom and I hurt my foot and ankle, I've become incredibly lazy because I know I will pay for exercising in anyway with severe pain. It's beautiful out there and I've spent some time over the past two days walking along the prom and feeling better for it as well.

5. I've come to realise that I've lost: all confidence in who I am due to the mental and physical abuse from SH. Who I am is not who I was and I'm working on regaining who I was before him. Although I am less the mouse KT met 6 years ago, I still am to net the peep who ran away.

6. I've come to realise that I hate it when: people appear to ignore me or they don't appreciate that I can have my own views as well as them.

7. I've come to realise that if I'm drunk: it's probably Christmas.

8. I've come to realise that money: is something I will always have to work hard at saving. Credit is not good - saving is better.

9. I've come to realise that: my mother lied to me when she said I would get ankles - I've met my paternal Granny now and I know I never will have beautiful svelte ankles or be able to wear boots. I wonder if I get my stumpy thumb and little fingers from her too...

10. I've come to realise that I'll always be: the kind of friend that is there when people need the best friend ever and discarded when they are back on top.

11. I've come to realise that I have a crush on: chunky guys with sparkly eyes.

12. I've come to realise that the last time I cried was: when I was reminiscing about lost family members.

13. I've come to realise that my cell phone: makes an excellent little torch for a few seconds at a time. It's also my watch, my alarm clock, my entertainment system (yay, Tetris), my communication system to KT when we're not together, my address book, my birthday reminder, my calendar, my appointment diary and my memo holder.

14. I've come to realise that when I wake up in the morning: my body has timed my dream to end exactly two seconds before the alarm goes off.

15. I've come to realise that before I go to sleep at night: I like to read until the book falls from my hand.

16. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about: how I should get to adding my new photos to disc before I lose them and write up the things I plan to.

17. I've come to realise that babies: are little people that I adore and that even though I still really want another and am young enough to be a first time mother, having a child who is old enough to have his own family means that I should get over wanting another child so badly and wait for the grandchildren. I don't think I will ever come to term with not having lost the babies that I did and I wont ever not want another. 

18. I've come to realise that when I get on Vox: I love to see what I consider my online family have been up to.

19. I've come to realise that today I will: probably not get much done - I am so tired!

20. I've come to realise that tonight I will: want to try and relax as much as possible - I need rest so I can work on number 21.

21. I've come to realise that tomorrow I will: be giving the garden a bit of a spruce if the weather holds up.

22. I've come to realise that I really want to: be content and never want for anything - I'm one of those people who has to wait for everything and sometimes I'd like to get whatever it is just that little bit sooner.

23. I've come to realise that the person who is most likely to repost this is: the person I 'stole' it from.

24. I've come to realise relationships: are mostly worth working at, but that it's okay to realise it's not working and to get away.

25. I've come to realise love: can be unconditional, fragile, beautiful, heart-breaking, sad or warming. 

26. I've come to realise my best guy friend(s): are the big brothers I never had.

27. I've come to realise my best girl friend(s): know I'm fabulous at keeping secrets. How else would I know that...

28. I've come to realise food: is something I don't really enjoy eating as much as I should - I need to work at getting a pattern of regular eating going on.

29. I've come to realise, when I'm a girlfriend: I tend to conform to the needs of my partner, even when it's detrimental to me in some way.

30. I've come to realise girls and boys: no matter how old, all want a hug from their mother sometimes.

31. I've come to realise over the summer: that we don't get as many warm, sunny days as I recall as I child so I should make the most of every one we get.

32. I've come to realise heartbreak: is something I associate with the loss of beloved family members most. I still feel their loss as clearly as when they first died. 

Score :: Draw
Luxurious :: Tactile
Party :: Animal
Limited edition :: Oooo!!
Security :: Gate
Betty :: Boo, Betty Boo just doing the Doo!
Under construction :: Incomplete
Pest :: Control
Director :: Controller
Express :: Delivery

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